Yes, it's true. I finally had a boyfriend this year. And he was elevated to the status of posting photos of him on Facebook (gasp) after 8 months of dating, or so. I never changed my relationship status on FB though, so I guess I didn't lose all my street cred when we broke up just shy of our one year anniversary. Had I not posted the photos and given him a silly online name to protect his identity (like my son with SharkHunter) I would never have to admit it failed, but alas, I have a big mouth I guess. Or rather, I thought I was "in love".
Anyhow, it's been 2 months since the breakup and I am done crying and feeling sorry for myself (finally) and single again. The silver lining to all this is that I can ask myself "what do you want?" For a short, 4-word question, it really packs a punch. Does anyone really know what they want? I think it is far easier to whittle down the answer by adding the things you don't want to an inverse list.
And after a whopper of a failed relationship, I can definitely add a few more items to my "don't want" list. I accept the fact that I made mistakes too, like not having great boundaries and expectations for my ex. In an effort to heal and become stronger through this painful experience, I am channeling a tough chick persona to help me become the person I want to be: someone with defined boundaries and expectations of others who is not afraid to tell people what I want!
Lately I have an overwhelming desire to knit & crochet for myself! I know that sounds bizarre and you probably think I knit for myself all the time. But consider this: I knit and crochet for a living, so everytime I finish a project, I have to mail it off to my customer. I rarely have the opportunity to keep the items I design and make. Channeling that tough chick makes me want to re-invent my look. Thanks to my incredible talent at buying and selling on eBay, I've been selling my Miami Barbie dresses and shoes and buying jeans, cute graphic tshirts, and more edgy things. But now I have this enormous desire to knit and crochet slouchy beanies, infinity scarves, earring and bracelets, and cropped tanks for layering pieces and accessories for my new edgier look.
I have yarns & beads picked out and the design ideas fresh in my mind, but no time to make them. What's a busy working girl to do? Well, beside being damn grateful I'm a busy working girl ;)
P.S. Any suggestions for a solution would be greatly appreciated in the comments below!